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Breakthrough To Recovery With Thank You Life 101

Why Did Drugs Feed My Pain?

Why Did Drugs Feed My Pain

 

Chapter 2

 

With what I thought would be good for my pains wasn’t always good for my soul in the long-term race to the end result that I was looking for. What were the issues that I was craving in my life? Well, the one most important thing I wanted was to be loved, I needed acceptances from my parents so much I could taste it in the drug that consumed me at the age of thirteen years old. The trap had been set in my thoughts and overpowered my brain that was shaping me up to be a needy person, I was always seeking attention from others to fill my cup with love. I was a lonely child when sitting in my room late at night, I remember always turning on the heater when my parents went to sleep. The noise of the Furness soothed my loneliness as if my mother was holding me in her arms. I use to go into the basement and even turn on the clothes dryer to get the warmth and sounds so I never felt alone. I would fall asleep on top of the dryer and even in the middle of the night. I would repeat the same patterns into my teens even when I smoked drugs, the pain wouldn’t go away from my thoughts. I even tried to use warm milk at night but all that did was make me wet my bed. You see I was a bedwetter for most of young life, from the ages of three years old and up to the age of fourteen or so give or take a few years. I was ridiculed as a child for being a bedwetter from my parents most of all the neighbourhood kids in my small elementary school that I attended. I hated the feeling of being teased as a child. I would cry myself to sleep most nights. I noticed when I started to smoke cigarettes at thirteen I was king of my own destiny, I could feel strong as if I couldn’t be hurt. Then when drugs came into my life, the pain was starting to disappear but as soon as the high went away the pain came right back the next morning. I never knew then that I was in the circle of no return but at least I knew the pain would go away for a little while. Yes, that is what I said the drugs worked only for the short term pain just like prescription drugs that doctors prescribe to their patients when they are hiding from there inner pains. I truly believe that pain comes from our past thoughts that we create every day we are here on this planet. When I was a kid I wanted to be heard from my parents, but I was told to mind my own business and just do what you are told. Do your homework do your chores and we can talk about it later. I waited for the talk but the talk never came. What the heck is going on I thought to myself, I did my work so when can I get what I asked for? I never believed that I deserved anything that I asked for in life. I only got what was provided to me. Was this all there was in life a bucket full of promises from the people who had raised me and was supposed to love me unconditionally? Why me I thought, am I that bad am I not worth it be given what I asked for in life. I couldn’t understand the whole scheme of life as I was growing up.  I only knew if I could only please them more I could receive more love and appreciation from my parents. Ok enough doom and gloom about my childhood, let’s talk business now!

 

How to stop the doom and gloom in life? I will tell you that life is very hard when YOU MAKE IT HARD!! Life can be and will be fun when you open up to new possibilities towards what you want not what you don’t want to happen in life. If you want joy and happiness you will receive it when you let go of fears that is holding you back from those most joyful moments in life. There might be roadblocks in your way but those are to make you stronger. If you think they are to stop you from what you want then you will stop moving towards your ultimate goal and that is happiness.

 

I always thought people were trying to hurt me so they were because I wanted to receive pain in my life. I wanted people to feel sorry for me when I was a small child so people did just that. I got what I asked for in my life for so many years. My plan worked out just as I laid it out. I would wet my bed to receive attention from my parents. I would fail my classes in school to have people feel sorry for me, to look upon me as if there was something wrong with me. I got it right the first time, I did get my pleasure of having my parents see me as a dysfunctional little boy that couldn’t do anything right.

 

I needed my parents for my pleasure to feel this way for most of my life even up until I was 40 years old. I never understood this until I found a solution to my life.

 

Chapter 3 will be coming tomorrow evening!!!

 

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Breakthrough To Recovery With Thank You Life 101

I Started Drinking At Three Years Old…

I Started Drinking At Three Years Old

 

Chapter 1

As life began for me, so was my drinking that wasn’t far behind, as of the age of three years old I had taken my first drink of the holy wine. I remember it like it was yesterday, my mother enjoyed a glass or two of wine on certain occasions, and I was like the family pet waiting for the crumbs to drop off the table but for this wasn’t food I was enjoying it was the yummy wine from the flower of dandelions, the most wonderful tasting wine I have ever tasted, because it was the only wine my parents made. I couldn’t understand why I enjoyed this flavour from the juices of nature, but something was so delicious about the feeling that the wine had given me.  Nobody was the wiser about what I was doing, as if the world never knew, for this was the beginning of a long road to an addiction that carried forth for many years. I couldn’t stop this feeling that the wine gave me. I never understood the true reason why I wanted to drink until later in my life. I will tell you from the days of the 1970s the world through my eyes was covered with a dark haze that clouded my thoughts, that always moved me into never-never land. I felt like a cartoon character from the bugs bunny show when my mind was filled with alcohol. If you can imagine when you may have been watching cartoons back in the day, they were much different then the animation we have now out in the world wide web today. All the cartoons I watched had bugs bunny being chased down by so many characters like the hunter Elmer Fudd that always said it’s rabbit season or Yosemite Sam that said I hate that rabbit and my favourite Tasmanian Devil that never spoke but wanted to eat Bugs Bunny in every episode that they were in together. Yes, we always cheered for Bugs every time. I always wonder why they were hunting or trying to eat him, I was maybe three years old when I first watch this cartoon. I had so many influences throughout my life, but I remember this the most. My mind was shaped by what I had seen and heard from the TV screen. I believe that my mind was altered in such a warped way. I now know why the world seems to be so cold and dark and screwed up. I am not blaming the TV for my life and all that I have done to hurt people but what we see and hear shapes who we are in our adult life. I believe that we as individuals need to take 100% responsibility for our action in life. I do understand that now, but when I was wee little one I wasn’t taught how to take responsibility. I always looked at what I did like someone else’s fault. Who did I see in my life that was showing me the ways of the world and how to treat people, well my parents, but they only knew what they were taught by their parents and so on down the line. By blaming them for my life now, is absolutely crazy. I created my life, I picked my parents they didn’t pick me. If I understood correctly we have thoughts, feeling and create our outcomings in life. By blaming the cartoons I watched, that means I didn’t take responsibility for my life as a child. I didn’t know how to see the world in a different way until I started to see myself first. This isn’t why I started drinking alcohol but this why I now look at my life with an open heart.

My Mission

 

“I am Stefan Oskar Neff and I am on a mission to help people help themselves find solutions to create clear clarity surrounding drug and alcohol addictions that may be stopping people from living the life that they always wanted and dreamed of having towards the future they desire”.  This all starts with our children and how they see the world. We as a human race have a right to live a meaningful life without roadblocks stopping our children from living a life of joy and happiness. By seeing ourselves for who we want to be, this is the truth of success in the world we live in today. What the future hold is up to us…

What he will get from our sessions…

1. The real reason why you needs to drink. (It’s not anxious feelings or stress)

2. Why you wants to have anxious & depressed feelings.

3. How the Subconscious Mind (Universe) works.

4. How to get rid of the (real reason)…

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Guided Meditation – Wealth and Abundance With Jack Canfield

 

Financial success starts in the mind. And if you have a positive money consciousness, you will find it relatively easy to make, save, manage, and grow your money. In this video I’ll take you through a guided meditation that will help you with this. http://bit.ly/2GmhTWx To further help you with mediation of wealth and abundance, I’ve included a FREE download to my 4-Step Meditation Guide. Click the link above. Transform your life and career with this FREE training: The 7 Pillars of True Life Transformation! http://bit.ly/2OQidl3

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Morning Habits to Jump Start Your Brain With Jack Canfield

 

The first hour after you wake up in the morning is the most impactful of your day. So how can you spend the first 60 minutes of your morning in a way that sets you up for success throughout the day? http://bit.ly/2Drf6JM Here are some morning habits and strategies, based on my forty-year career of learning from and working with the world’s leading entrepreneurs, executives, and creative geniuses.. Sign up for my FREE training, The Success Formula, by clicking the link above! Transform your life and career with this FREE training: The 7 Pillars of True Life Transformation! http://bit.ly/2OQidl3

 

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17years old boy Mind Blowing Experience. 依存症回復施設でも変わらなかった子のマインドが変わった瞬間【Japanese Subtitle】

 

 

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How to Boost Energy with EFT Tapping With Jack Canfield

Tapping is an intensely powerful tool that can help you quickly get over your largest fears and help achieve all of your goals. In this video, I’ll teach you a basic tapping sequence so that you can quickly eliminate your negative emotions. http://bit.ly/2hPMr9b Discover how to master your thoughts and emotions to attract the life you truly want. Click the link above to download my Law of Attraction Guide for free.

 

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