There was a thought in my mind as my world was turned upside down with most feelings of truth pulled from my life. Living on a lonely road finding no happiness in sight so far away from my empty life without my baby boy living 4000 miles away. As months turned into years before I heard from my toxic wife. The next time was when she wanted me to make contact with our son now almost two years old and she was looking for money to support them to come to see me 4000 miles away. Why now I thought to myself but with much hesitation, I sent her a little bit money. As there arrivel was approaching rapidly not knowing what to expect because we were still married, well maybe we can make it work after we had time apart. Deep inside I still loved her so very much even though she was toxic for me to live in my lifestyle drinking, smoking and doing drugs. Let’s see if we still had feelings for each other after all. When the day arrived at the airport I was so nervous I couldn’t stop shaking with fear and excitement, what’s going to happen nexted.