The story unfolds with the truth about myself.
When I saw them there standing at the arrival gate at the airport. I started with tears running from my eyes. I didn’t think that my pain was real until I allowed my emotional feelings to come from within me. But was it real emotions, I wasn’t sure that my tears where for them or for myself for coming 4000 miles back into a toxic environment. This is what I need to figure out in my thoughts that I was feeling. Did I real want to be here for more pain in my life. This was making me uneasy about why am I here 4000 miles away from my real life, I thought to myself. Was this a selfish act on my part just arriving to see my little baby boy.